Bunga itu kuncup.

Yang satunya mekar.

Kamu pilih yang mana?

Mekar.

Indah ya?

Iya, dipandang.

Kuncup juga wangi.

Iya.

Kenapa ga dipilih?

Gak semua nya bisa lihat, gak menarik.

Tapi kan bikin penasaran.

Kan yang mau tau cuma peneliti, yang mau mikir. Yang biasa2 aja mah mending yang jelas keliatan aja.

Oh.

Sudah terlalu lama?

Kadang sampai lupa rasanya.
Euforianya.
Kesedihannya.
Kekhawatirannya.
Dan perasaan aneh lainnya.

Ingin pun merasakan lagi.
Tuhan, jawab ya pertanyaan saya.

Apakah sudah terlalu lama? Kalau iya, jangan buat semakin lama ya.

Have been being on this position, literally this position. It's so hard when you actually didn't want to let him go but you know that keeping him for yourself wasn't a wise decision.

You know you love him for sure, so you tried to believe and appreciate all of his decision. You keep in faith that all people come to your life for a purpose.

Then, after all of my struggle being alone for myself and you, I got a news that you already married. Sadly, I didn't get that news from you. But I'm happy for you two.

You, who had been become the subject of my story here.
Congratulations, you finally made it.
You got what you want, what you need and of course I'm sure that is your destiny.
God sent her to you, and God made you two as couple. I beg to God for always letting you get the best of everything.
I really appreciate your braveness. You did well boy! Even it made my circle strengthen me like I was drowning in a big ocean, can't reach the surface. No, it doesn't happened to me actually.
I'm sure that is God's answer for all of my questions. God tell me that you are not for me, that's it.
No no, it is not my freakin-out-feeling-when-I-heard-your-good-news. It is just my expression to face what I heard this morning. I'm ok, literally ok. No need to worry about me.

Yes you, one of my affection that turns into my grateful feeling. Because I know God sent you to me on that time with a good purpose for who I am today, and my future.

Aku tipe orang yang selalu diam soal perasaan.
Paling gak berani buat mengungkapkan.
Ciut nyalinya.
Rasa percaya dirinya langsung turun.
Tapi orang mudah menebak.
Dasarnya paling gak bisa menyembunyikan.

Aku ini penakut.

Ya.

Aku takut untuk jatuh cinta.

Baik pada orang yang sama.

Atau berbeda.

Aku penakut.

Padahal cintaku sudah akut.

Air mata pun tak pernah surut.

Pun pada hati aku tak menurut.

Siapalah aku.

Si buruk rupa yang sering termangu.

Menunggu sosokmu yang semu.

Tanpa ada balasanmu.

Gelas

Kamu itu seperti air

Dan aku gelasnya

Tanpa kamu,

Aku bisa dibolak balik tanpa khawatir

Aku bisa jatuh, dan pecah

Tapi aku kosong, tidak bermakna

Denganmu,

Kalau dibalik, kamu tumpah, bikin repot sekitar

Kalau jatuh, kamu membanjiri lantai

Pun bisa pecah juga

Tapi aku punya arti penting, sebagai wadah untukmu

Untuk kamu, yang bisa bermanfaat bagi orang banyak

Aku bukan botol plastik, takutnya gak go green