Friday, December 27, 2019

Jodoh itu cerminan diri kan?

Ayo semangat, mungkin Allaah menghendaki kamu melakukan sesuatu yang bermanfaat sebelum kamu bertemu dengan jodohmu :)

Sunday, December 22, 2019

Rasanya seneng lihat seorang laki-laki sangat mengagumi dan membanggakan wanitanya.

Semoga segera merasakan hal yang sama, bismillaah :)

Sunday, December 15, 2019

Bener2 serasa ditampar.
Banyak hal yang bikin aku sadar bahwa I'm blessed.
Gak ngerti kenapa masih gampang sekali mengeluh.
Padahal Allaah udah kasih kebahagiaan yang gak terukur nilainya.
Ya Allaah, terimakasih ❤️

Saturday, November 30, 2019

Ya Allaah kenapa rasanya so jlz gitu ngeliat dia pergi sama temen entah siapa but ga pernah sama aku.

Who the hell are u jahhhh?

Tuesday, November 26, 2019

I know that he deserves more better one than me.

Shame on you Jah, you always blaming on yourself

Monday, November 25, 2019

Monday, November 18, 2019

Aku selalu belajar bagaimana cara mensyukuri setiap detail dalam kehidupanku.
Salah satunya, aku bersyukur punya orang-orang whom I can rely on ketika aku bener2 butuh.
Orang2 yang tawanya selalu membuatku bersyukur punya mereka.
Orang2 yang keluh kesahnya pun kadang kutunggu.
Orang2 yang tidak pernah meninggalkanku di belakang. Dalam kondisi apapun.
Dan kamu, adalah salah satu dari orang itu.

Tapi kenapa aku serakah, aku masih ingin kamu jadi hak milikku.
Padahal kan sama saja.

Aku gak tahu.

Maaf.

Sunday, November 17, 2019

I don't have any right for being jealous. But hey, I still can do that because it wasn't a forbidden for me, was it?

And yeah, whatever the reason you do that to me *include you intentionally do it for making me jlz or sth like dat* I'm still into you. No matter what.

Sorry to make it clear, because I really want you to know that.

Saturday, November 16, 2019

Tuhan, katanya jodoh itu pasti bertemu ya.
Dan bisa ketemu di mana saja ya?

Tuhan, minta kisi2 boleh gak kalau aku ketemu jodohku di mana?

Monday, November 11, 2019

Thursday, November 7, 2019

Why this feeling become stronger and stronger?
I ask God, but still I play my role as His. I lay everything on God.
With or without him, I still belong to God destiny.
I know, what we choose today will impact our fate.
But once again, God's plan is the best plan I will get.

I love you as the way you love someone you want to be with.

Thursday, October 31, 2019

Have you ever fell in love with someone but you felt like you didn't deserve him/her? Then you tried so hard to cover your feeling by hiding everything about him/her just to make you not that so in love with him/her?

Sunday, October 13, 2019

Unfortunately, most of ppl around me has beauty standard that makes me not into them.
Sadly, you have the same view abt that.

Tuesday, October 8, 2019

Setan memang suka bermain di dalam batin yang sedang bergejolak.
Atau memang Tuhan yang kasih tanda?

Tahan.

Thursday, October 3, 2019

Aku benci jika terlampau sering bertemu kamu.

Karena itu memaksaku menyadari bahwa kamu memang tak sejiwa denganku.

Thursday, September 26, 2019

Aku berdoa.
Tapi ku juga berjanji jika memang bukan dia, aku ikhlas.

Sekarang udah bisa nepatin janji belum?

Sunday, September 22, 2019

I've been falling so deep.
And I fought to reach the surface.
Then now,
Should I admit that I fall again?

Tuesday, September 10, 2019

Monday, September 2, 2019

Jadi perempuan itu serba salah.

Mau diem-diem kok nyakitin diri sendiri.

Mau straightforward kok jadi terkesan agresif.

Sunday, September 1, 2019

Saturday, August 31, 2019

Rasanya ada yang ngganjel, but i think i i wasn't lucky enough to have a good time to tell you this.

Sadly, I just realized it when I know everything seems late.

Hah, hidup.

Thursday, August 22, 2019

Monday, August 5, 2019

Maybe this inappropriate post will have many complaining words.

Well, the time I make this post is when I get so much pressure from myself because till now I'm still thinking about my so-so life and I don't have any motivation to increase my life just because I still don't know what am I passionate to.

Still can't get the answer why I never push myself to something bigger than now? Even I know it is good for me?

Tuesday, July 30, 2019

Belajar lagi.

Iya, sudah lupa bagaimana.

Makanya belajar.

Biar dapet ilmu baru.

Ilmu lama juga kembali.

Biar siap kalau suatu saat harus ketemu ujian.

Atau ketemu penguji dadakan.

Atau...

Bertemu ujian yang disemogakan.

Friday, July 26, 2019

Dear jodohku.

Besok, kalau kita sudah menikah, jangan lupa baca blog ini ya.

Aku yakin pasti ada cerita tentang kamu disini.

Ada juga yang bukan tentang kamu.

Biar kamu tahu, aku pernah patah.

Tapi patahku ini berujung ke kamu kan?

Aku mensyukuri patah ini. Karena tanpa patah ini aku tidak akan bertemu kamu.
Anakku.

Pernah lihat ulat yang menjelma jadi kupu-kupu gak?

Belajar dari situ ya.

Biar kamu tahu, kepompong walaupun tidak indah tapi perannya besar.
Bunga itu kuncup.
Yang satunya mekar.

Kamu pilih yang mana?

Mekar.

Indah ya?

Iya, dipandang.

Kuncup juga wangi.

Iya.

Kenapa ga dipilih?

Gak semua nya bisa lihat, gak menarik.

Tapi kan bikin penasaran.

Kan yang mau tau cuma peneliti, yang mau mikir. Yang biasa2 aja mah mending yang jelas keliatan aja.

Oh.

Wednesday, July 24, 2019

Sudah terlalu lama?

Kadang sampai lupa rasanya.
Euforianya.
Kesedihannya.
Kekhawatirannya.
Dan perasaan aneh lainnya.

Ingin pun merasakan lagi.
Tuhan, jawab ya pertanyaan saya.

Apakah sudah terlalu lama? Kalau iya, jangan buat semakin lama ya.

Wednesday, June 19, 2019

Have been being on this position, literally this position. It's so hard when you actually didn't want to let him go but you know that keeping him for yourself wasn't a wise decision.

You know you love him for sure, so you tried to believe and appreciate all of his decision. You keep in faith that all people come to your life for a purpose.

Then, after all of my struggle being alone for myself and you, I got a news that you already married. Sadly, I didn't get that news from you. But I'm happy for you two.

Monday, June 10, 2019

You, who had been become the subject of my story here.
Congratulations, you finally made it.
You got what you want, what you need and of course I'm sure that is your destiny.
God sent her to you, and God made you two as couple. I beg to God for always letting you get the best of everything.
I really appreciate your braveness. You did well boy! Even it made my circle strengthen me like I was drowning in a big ocean, can't reach the surface. No, it doesn't happened to me actually.
I'm sure that is God's answer for all of my questions. God tell me that you are not for me, that's it.
No no, it is not my freakin-out-feeling-when-I-heard-your-good-news. It is just my expression to face what I heard this morning. I'm ok, literally ok. No need to worry about me.

Yes you, one of my affection that turns into my grateful feeling. Because I know God sent you to me on that time with a good purpose for who I am today, and my future.

Wednesday, May 15, 2019

Aku tipe orang yang selalu diam soal perasaan.
Paling gak berani buat mengungkapkan.
Ciut nyalinya.
Rasa percaya dirinya langsung turun.
Tapi orang mudah menebak.
Dasarnya paling gak bisa menyembunyikan.

Saturday, May 4, 2019

Aku ini penakut.
Ya.
Aku takut untuk jatuh cinta.
Baik pada orang yang sama.
Atau berbeda.

Aku penakut.
Padahal cintaku sudah akut.
Air mata pun tak pernah surut.
Pun pada hati aku tak menurut.

Siapalah aku.
Si buruk rupa yang sering termangu.
Menunggu sosokmu yang semu.
Tanpa ada balasanmu.

Gelas

Kamu itu seperti air
Dan aku gelasnya

Tanpa kamu,
Aku bisa dibolak balik tanpa khawatir
Aku bisa jatuh, dan pecah
Tapi aku kosong, tidak bermakna

Denganmu,
Kalau dibalik, kamu tumpah, bikin repot sekitar
Kalau jatuh, kamu membanjiri lantai
Pun bisa pecah juga
Tapi aku punya arti penting, sebagai wadah untukmu
Untuk kamu, yang bisa bermanfaat bagi orang banyak

Aku bukan botol plastik, takutnya gak go green

Sunday, April 14, 2019

Ada satu waktu yang bikin ngerasa kangen banget. Tapi gatau harus melakukan apa.

Cukup kudo'akan kamu, kalaupun memang kamu yang Allaah ridhoi untuk bersamaku, Allaah pasti dekatkan. Entah bagaimana caranya.